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Keep Paying It Forward.

Let me preface by saying that I know not everyone who reads this follows the same religion as me. This is a personal account from my personal view.

About a week ago or more, a friend helped me out when I was at a very low point. Being low is nothing new to me right now and I'm constantly relying on God to light my way. I promised Him after this friend helped me that the next opportunity I saw to help a fellow human being, I would grab it with both hands and I would know as it was happening when that moment came. I'm not talking about donating a dollar to your local grocery store to help a charity, which is a noble gesture and I try to do that every time. When I go get toys and food for my rats, I donate to help homeless pets. Not much effort there.

This morning, I was setting up shop and as I was stacking furniture, I saw headlights in the parking lot slowly pulling in. It was a minivan. Great, I thought, another soccer mom wanting to know if we're open yet. A lady in her late 40s, early 50s got my attention with a shaky, soft voice in a New England accent. She was in tears and said she was running out of gas and her daughter was in a wreck south of us and she was trying to get to her. She asked if I had only a dollar. I had some cash, but no single bills and I told her. Then her cell rang and she answered it frantically saying she was trying to get there. Something told me she was for real. And who asks for a single dollar but someone REALLY desperate? She said her grandchild was dead. Then there was that internal voice, but it wasn't really my own, something beyond and above me saying, "Remember your promise". I went against everything I've ever been told by my peers, went back inside and locked the door, of course and went into my purse. I managed to find a single bill! I wish I could have helped more. She thanked me tearfully and profusely.

Sure enough, she pulled to the Shell across the street answering her cell phone for the 3rd or 4th time. Was her story true? I believe so and even if it wasn't, is it my business? She clearly needed it more than I did at that time and I have food in my house right now and more money will be coming shortly in small doses. I have a safety net with Mom and Dad, luckily but that's a last resort. Some people are much worse off and having a much harder day than I am and I met someone like that this morning. I had the opportunity, I realized it and I took it.

Later that day, someone I know, I'm not going to say who or where, approached me and slipped a ten in my pocket. I protested, of course, but this person is not the type to take 'no' for an answer. Their reason, they said it was for me for "always being so kind".

I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I don't ask for anything. I don't even think myself worthy. I'm just doing what I'm supposed to do, according to God and I try not to pre-judge anyone as I see so many do. I don't believe people should demand rewards for doing what they should do anyway. I remain available to help where I can, when I can. I do believe when someone does something good for another, they are rewarded in some form and it is your duty to pass that on. All I did was pass on a good deed and because I received another, I will do it again.


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Aug. 18th, 2008 10:26 am (UTC)
Ah, this entry makes me feel all warm inside. No one talks about God or spirituality here in Germany, I wish religion or the mentioning of God was more of a greater part of everyday life like it is in Egypt where I grew up.
Aug. 19th, 2008 02:08 pm (UTC)
Not many people here do, either except the goody-goody Bible Thumpers, which I am far from. I can't stand self-righteousness and apparently, nobody is holier than they are.

Your comment really made me smile because I feel like I can't talk freely about God without some people either pointing out my "sins" or making it a point to tell me how they're not religious. I'm not trying to push my theology on anyone, but I'm not going to hide it away, either. I'm also not going to be judgemental when someone's beliefs are not the same as mine because religious beliefs are very very personal and between you and your God/Goddess. I just ask that people don't judge me in return. Thank you so much for enjoying my entry and taking it for what it is, my own spiritual experience.
Aug. 18th, 2008 02:21 pm (UTC)
I'm a big fan of paying it forward. I think something good always comes of it, no matter what. But I also think that a lot of people don't realize what good things have happened to them, and so they don't believe that it works.
Aug. 19th, 2008 02:02 pm (UTC)
I don't think they do either and I think a lot of people are too self-absorbed to even consider helping anyone else. I was blessed/cursed (however it seems to work for me at the time) with the ability to feel great sympathy and empathy for others. I'm constantly putting myself in someone else's shoes or I'll think "What if that were my sister/mom/dad/boyfriend/friend?" before I can even stop myself.
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